I am now employed. A productive member of society.
Hopefully, positive.
Less than 36 hours ago, I had no prospects.
Professional life was nothing and had no hope of going anywhere.
Let me work in service to make the past four years mean nothing.
Love life was a confusing heartbreak joke,
and probably still is, but let's add awkward to that.
My family and friends in the hometown were full of love
kind words, words of escapism.
My mental state is always one step away from going apeshitcrazy.
I will leave the room of dichotomy, which may help my headspace.
What is wrong with that term? No one seems to like it.
I will leave the house of walls whispering Angst, auf Deutsch, bitte.
Pack away the shit to deal with later, because reality is happening too quickly.
Contract.
Retirement.
Move.
Single?
Only 20.
Scream, please.
Excited? Nervous is the word of the day!
When were people able to read my thoughts?
I should hide my eyes and cover my mouth
because I don't understand this.
How to keep the light hearted allusions to other conversations had with other people away from the toxicity of relationships.
How can I be honest when I try to avoid stories and people tell me secrets of betrayal?
How to not cry when you are no longer able to fly to Neverland?
Words coming to you from my mind
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