Das Ende

Not of this
or of you
Not of what I've become.

The end, which is just a beginning as I'm constantly reminded.
I should just be happy. Take horns in the ribs.
Ignore the blood it spills and look forward to riding this bull

til the end?

It doesn't quite feel like a chapter. If it is, then my book isn't balanced.
It has to be a novella at least. I don't want that much more horrific conflict.
Adulthood.
Time to leave being a young adult at 20. Why did I ask for this?
Did I?

How do you leave a place, people, a life, that you were so recently given? Appreciated.
This question makes me feel self depreciating. I wasted years in a Syndrome (Stockholm style).

How do you mount a new life if you are not sure what size large animal you are trying to tame?

Answers would be nice, but they don't know their budget.
Ridiculous.

[end of silliness]

How are you?

Nothing to talk about

Sorry if I have been elusive.

I am trying to be teacher and student. Adult and young adult. Living in reality and trying to escape it whenever possible.
It leads to misanthropy. I really do not think it is too much to ask people to respond to me. Maybe it is. My students did it pretty well yesterday.
I was preached to. If I told them my thoughts, I would be asked not to come back. But they fall in line well.

Does other religions upset you? Would you have had the balls enough to tell your high school teacher that they were going to hell unless they found God?

My time as an undergraduate is coming to an end, and I don't know how to handle it.
I cannot handle people who do not listen to advise.
I cannot handle people act like I am a burden.
I cannot handle the sky blue question mark with gray and green fog.
Nope.
This isn't happening.

Let me run.